Cam vs Porn
Porn was very structured and as silly as it may sound, made me feel like a business person. I would catch 5am flights, be in airports and traveling all over the US and even the world 2-3 weeks out of each month. I had almost no contact with the public/my viewers. I had a Twitter that I posted to but rarely responded. I had no other social media. I knew approximately how much I’d make each month, if I didn’t have an exact number it was only due to the fact that I could pick up an extra gig. I was constantly on sets and around other professionals in the industry. If I were to not show up for a set, people would have been out thousands of dollars and it would have led to me having a sullied reputation within the industry. And the money, was of course wonderful, and as I said, steady and I knew roughly how much I’d make which is of course, important to anyone.
Camming- [Disclaimer- there are many successful and extremely hard working girls in the cam world. There are many top cam girls that are millionaires, it can be the best thing financially to ever happen to a person- the following statement is purely my own experience and does not reflect the experience of anyone but myself] Okay, lol, with that said, I was shocked at how physically easy cam was. I would literally just sit on my bed and turn a camera on. There was no packing a suitcase, no getting blood drawn for stds, no sex with other people (which I realize many cam models do but I didn’t and know that many others don’t either, especially on the platform I used which was MFC) I could go on listing things to fill up a few pages that porn required but cam does not. I was so shocked to make the same in my first month that I could make in porn. It was crazy. Once I lost my steadiness and got irregular with camming, it became difficult to make money. The main reason I got irregular with cam were the comments. I wasn’t dealing with other professionals anymore on a closed set, I was sitting live on the internet for anyone to comment. I do not have thick skin so all it would take is one hate comment and I’d be practically in tears. People picking apart how I look, who I’ve dated, that I’m useless, stupid, a whore etc. So I soon knew that by “going to work” would mean that I’d have to endure this verbal abuse which of course would have never happened on a porn set. One time someone said, “Ew your feet are so dry you are so fucking nasty, goodbye, I’m going to throw up.” Mind you I got a pedicure every 2 weeks but it has now made me self conscious to this day if my feet are moisturized enough or not and before, I always showed my feet, but now I often crop them out of videos and photos. It makes me wonder if other girls got that kinda stuff too and that’s why they wear those long socks? Could just be a cutesy fashion thing, idk. When I got up to 135 pounds every other person was calling me fat and nasty and terrible things so that’s literally why I’m not on there right now. I know that me personally- I can’t cam without getting shit on non-stop unless I’m under 120 at the most otherwise I won’t make money or get tips. They just expect a certain look from me because of who I am I guess.
What hurt the most about cam was being on for an hr and not making anything, or being on and people tipping 5 cents, it made me feel like a beggar on the streets, it made me feel worthless. I absolutely hated that feeling. Now I’ve had nights like that, where I’d hide behind tears and in the last hour I was on, have a guy come in and tip me 3 grand and save the day but the not knowing if that was going to happen was hard, it was hard to not know if I’d make 25.00 or 2500.00 in a night.
Now, once a girl is established, cams on schedule all the time and has her set audience she probably does have an idea of a minimum of how much she makes each month but that wasn’t me, it was something I dabbled in and I’d be willing too again once I get below the 120.
Another thing is that cam is very lonely compared to porn, it’s weird working alone and only having interaction with a screen. It’s scary to make sure to not say the wrong thing, I learned that by only saying a sentence or two about once every 3-5 minutes worked best for me because if I talked to much I’d lose viewers. It’s a very interesting game and finding just the right amount of everything takes a while to learn what works for each individual.
*** Discalimer*** I do not recommend sex work. I would suggest going to college and going into the medical field. It’s a stable job with great benefits that everyone in society respects.
There’s no such thing as easy money. If it’s physical or mental all work comes with a cost. It’s funny how brave people become when they can hide behind a keyboard. I’m sure you are a much better physical shape that the people criticizing you and degrading you. As one ages this type of work it’s even harder. That’s why one should always be evolving. It’s not right for people to pay money and feel they have the right to condemn someone. Just remember if given the chance I bet nine out of 10 of those people would change their lives for the life you have now. Envy and jealousy bring out people worst sides. I reiterate there’s no such thing as easy money.